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February 03, 2005
Revival
Did you ever want a revival, but knew that if you got one, you would be too skeptical or critical to believe?
I want a revolution, I need a change. But sometimes we want what we are not brave enough to leap into. In sixth grade we went to a ropes course. I harnessed up, climbed the trunk of the tree and stood on the small platform. There was a bar a few feet in front of me. I wanted to jump, I wanted to grab it hard and feel that accomplished exhilaration. I stood there for so long. I began to focus on everything around me-- the ground so far away, the other students bored with my hesitations, and the teacher urging and encouraging me. My memory of self-esteem is such that in my head, I wasn't brave and I let myself be lowered slowly by the rope. I am pretty sure I did jump, though I just barely touched the bar and fell.
I need to jump. I have been standing on this platform for too long. And the longer I stand, the harder the jump gets, the farther the ground seems. Yet my teacher keeps on urging me. Every day I hear him-- Jump, Libby. But teacher, I don't know how! What if I fall? Libby, I have you harnessed and secure-- you're safe because I'm holding the rope. Jump... Jump... Jump.
I'm afraid that after I jump I will climb right back up and forget that I already know how! I need a revival.
-Lib
Posted by libbystokes at February 3, 2005 10:59 PM