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June 28, 2006

Looking for the Africa Blog?

I will be in Africa for seven weeks starting July 8th, so please visit my Africa blog for pictures, stories, and updates.

-Libby

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June 13, 2006

So Single

My roommate just celebrated her four year anniversary with her boyfriend. My other roommate has been with her boyfriend for over four years. Another roommate has recently started dating a really great guy. And my other roommate is at the beginning of what could become a relationship.

What doesn't help me here is that last night I watched the pilot episode of a new show that just started called "How to get the guy." This just made me feel so single.

Anyway, this is just a strange time to be "out there." I have friends who are nearing thirty and are still single, I have friends who are getting married at 21. One problem is that it seems like the people I have been around the last four years aren't the type to date. I don't mean that they aren't datable, just that they aren't likely to ask you out on a date.

Then I have the problem of "The Standard."

The Standard is the mental picture of what your ideal guy could look and act like and what his general interests could be. This Standard is good because it gives you some sort of guidelines for scouting a crush and then for being sure a guy is your type (but how do I even know what my type is?!...). The Standard is bad because it is made up of a lot of character possibilities, which means that you end up being torn between liking one guy from either end of your Standard spectrum. One guy is witty and fun, but a little too unrestrained; the other is very godly and sweet, but not very clever. (And I say this like I have my pick or something... they are all just waiting for me to make my decision...ha!)

I don't know what else to say. Just that it's hard watching others find fun and love in relationships. That excitement of being someones "interest" is a really fun part getting to know people. I want that.

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June 09, 2006

Megan and Mason

I was lying in bed last night and I couldn't sleep. I don't remember what my train of thought was, but somehow I took myself back to seventh or eighth grade when I used to go to Barbara's workplace after school. She's a physical therapist, and at the time she was working at the special ed school that was just down the road from my junior high. Rather than take the bus home (which was out of the question if you were older than ten), I followed the dirt trail that wound through the woods between the schools until I got to her work, where I would stay until she was done for the day.

I liked being there mostly because there were lots of toys and big foam block furniture and bright colors. But the more I visited, I got to know some of the kids who she worked with regularly. Two in particular I remember fondly. One was Megan. I don't remember exactly how old she was, maybe eight or nine, and I don't remember exactly why she had to come. But she was in a powerchair, and she was all smiles. Usually while she was working with Barbara I would go outside and play with her little sister Emma, who had so much energy and was a cute little girl. But then I would come in and we would all play together. I remember Megan's reaction time was slightly delayed sometimes, so you had to be careful not to frighten her or disorient her, but we always had fun. She laughed so much, and I just remember her always smiling when you looked at her. One day I brought in daisy-chain crown and gave it to Megan. She loved it. I think Barbara took a picture-- I wish I could see it again.

Little mason was another kid who Barbara worked with. He was a feisty little redhead. Barbara always called me Libby Loo, which Mason picked up, only when he said it it came out Yibby Yoo. I don't remember much else about Mason, but that he was adorable.

I really miss those times. I'm sure at first I was hesitant to work with or get to know kids in wheelchairs, but I'm glad I did. It sounds so cliche, but I really will always remember them.

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June 07, 2006

Chick Flick

Why do women see chick flicks? They always seem like a good idea, but turn out to have disastrous affects on us. At least they do on me.

I wont even say which silly chick flick I saw tonight, because it's doesn't deserve my heartache. When I was in high school it seemed like chick flicks caused crushes on actors. Us girls would get all swoony over some famous cute boy and we would have daydreams of marrying him and having his beautiful babies. But now, these movies just remind me of my singleness, and I pay little attention to the actors and think instead of the principle of the fairytale itself-- "When is this going to happen to me?"

I know this isn't at all new. I know I'm not the first to worry that I will still be single at age 30. I know that movies can make me feel these feelings much more acutely and that in a day or two I will feel differently. What I don't know is why I continue to throw myself into the torment that is the chick flick.

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June 03, 2006

Stylin' a-fresh

I have been meaning to for a long time now, but today I finally finished updated the blog with new style! I liked the red sun thing, but it was just getting old and I needed something a little more fresh, something that represented where I am at now in my sense of color and design. I know the banner image isn't all that involved, but it's at least a start. Maybe having better style will encourage me to write more. Or not. We'll see :)

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June 02, 2006

Amelie moment

I swear it wasn't on purpose, or maybe it was my subconcious that made me do it...

I turned on the Amelie soundtrack today and within a few minutes I had taken out my toolbox and begun to empty it out and clean it. I didn't realize the connection until I had started emptying it, but it's funny nonetheless.

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