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November 16, 2006
The Usual
I have been working with my aunt lately, running an espresso bar for various catered events like weddings, office parties, bar mitzvahs, etc. I love the job because I get to create and serve drinks to people who can't function without caffeine. They love it, so I love it. Also, each event is at a new location. So every job feels new and different, and we always see new people and places.
Since I have been working with her, I have thought more about what it was/is like to work a "regular" job. And by regular I mean in the same building, with the same people, at the same time, doing the same thing. Discovering how much I love the irregularity of the espresso bar, I fear that I may never be able to handle the regularity of so many other jobs. I love working with coffee, but would working at Starbucks get "old" after about a week of working in the same store? I am truly scared of having a job. I am scared of falling into The Usual.
But then how does this even work? I am the one always saying that I am so sentimental, that I love familiarness, that I hate change. So where does this feeling come from? How do I explain on my resume that of my strengths and weaknesses, I love routine but feel bored without change?
Then I wonder if maybe this attitude I have wont somehow show up in my relationships. I feel like I enjoy relational routines. Spending time with familiar people doing the same things. But what if I flip out and decide that I can't stand it and need something new?
How do I face (change?) the fact that I am truly a child of my generation-- someone who gets bored after 35 seconds of one thing.
Posted by libbystokes at November 16, 2006 10:17 PM